My thoughts

I went to a student led conference, like a parent teacher interview, with Caroline's teacher.  It open my eyes to how I am oblivious to what my children are doing and what is happening with them.  I sort of get bogged down with the mundane things if life.  I forget to actually talk to my children.  I need to ask Caroline how her day was, who are her friends, what does she like. I need to really recognize what each child needs and how each differs. I think this gets a lot harder with more children.  I am just realizing that Caroline has a hard time focusing in school, she often doesn't get her work done because she is distracted.   I need to address issues like these. Ava needs special attention,  she needs a lot of it.  I need to remember to play with Margaret and interact with her,  she loves to sing little songs, it is just taking the time to do it.  The thing that I am really bad at is giving my children affection.  Caroline already hates hugs, probably because I am so bad at giving them.  I am not a very affectionate person and I have remind myself to do it.  I am not totally negative and I don't think I am doing a horrible job it is just that I need to be more aware of my kids needs and differences.  My posts have become so negative and gloomy, I do have a good happy life, it is just easy to only see the negative.